Things have been getting better here. I'm becoming more used to the system and the way things are in Turkey (as well as how Turkish people are) and I'm getting more comfortable. I finished my first course and met my new students yesterday. I'm also pleased to report that all but one of my students from my first course passed PIN and are now Intermediate students. I'm so proud of them! They were a great first class...I think I got really lucky with them. They were exactly what I needed them to be with everything else that was goin' on. I went out to dinner with them right before the course ended and genuinely had a good time. And one of my students gifted me a bottle of Georgian wine and some homemade wine her father's dad makes. All my students knew how I felt about wine, mainly because I usually always used it in my grammar examples (First conditional question form: Will Heather die if she never drinks wine again?). So screw the apple, nothing beats this gift!
I'm a little nervous to start a new class, but I'm also a little excited to see how different things will be. I think this class will be much weaker than my last class and I'll really have to develop as a teacher to be able to meet their specific needs. I just hope everything goes smoothly and I have a better course overall this time around. Aside from my great students course one was horrible. But everyone says they get easier as they go and that the next year (after ICELT) is even better, so I'm really glad I stuck it out and made it work.
Winter is upon us and my oh my is it cold. I need to go out into town and get a better coat. When it got really cold back in Florida I would just hop into a warm bath and soak. I really wish I had a bathtub here. Oh wait....I DO! Totally had one installed and indulged in my first bath last night. Poured a glass of wine and read my book while soaking up to the neck. Talk about simple pleasures. I honestly and truly believe I will be much happier here for this reason alone! It's the best 350 TL I've spent so far.
Thanksgiving was lovely. I made a homemade dinner for me and my fiance and it was amazing. Played volleyball before I started cooking, and even though I hurt my wrist, it was great to have all the things I love on Turkey Day: my favorite sport, a bathtub, homemade dinner (literally, everything from scratch, stuffing, turkey, mashed potatoes, and gravy), my fiance, and an episode of The Walking Dead. It was lame I had to work earlier that day as well as the next day, but it was the next best thing to being home with my family. And I even got to chat with them a bit, too. Good stuff all around.
I have a lot of planning to do this weekend, but overall I think it'll be nice to just relax and clean house a bit. Maybe I'll go out and buy that coat today. Lazy days are my favorite days :)
Friday, November 23, 2012
Saturday, November 3, 2012
How shocking!
Ohhh, so that's what culture shock is. Or at least I think that's what this is.
I'm feeling it pretty intensely, I'd say. Thing have been rough lately. I'm really overwhelmed and I have so much anxiety, and I don't really know what to do about it. It's in times like these that I miss my family terribly and thank the high heavens that my fiance is here with me. Because I'm so close with my family, I think being away from them is the hardest part. I also miss being able to talk to my friends on a more regular basis. Not to mention, the internet hasn't exactly been dependable. There's just not enough hours in the day. Or rather, not enough of those hours are spent relaxing or doing something other than work for school.
I knew it would be difficult to come here and that it would be a hard job, but I didn't really expect it to be like this. I mean, once you get your head wrapped around things and just accept that this is the way it is and just deal with it, you'll be ok. Doing so has been difficult for me though. I can feel myself fighting it and just yearning for the comfort of my old life, and I think that's part of my problem. Maybe that's what culture shock it overall. It's not so much that things are really different, it's just a different way of thinking, I guess. I can't quite explain it because it's really an internal thing, but yeah, it sucks. I literally just take it a day at a time and when I think even a week ahead I start to cry. I know in the end I'll be stronger though. Rimond says it's like learning to drive in New York City. If you can drive in New York City, you can drive anywhere. I just gotta stick it out and try to get through it and I'll be a better person and teacher for it. I need to be more positive! Everyone is really understanding and empathetic and says it'll get better, and I just hope they're right.
I did a bit of traveling over the Bayram holiday and that was really nice. Rimond and I went to Kapadokya (Cappadocia) for three days and met some really great people from all over the world. We went hiking the first day with a couple named Marina and Ag who spoke Russian, and after they left we met a group and hung out with two people named Houyem from Tunisia and Igor from Croatia. It was really wonderful to interact with all different types of people and see new and different things. I think traveling will be very healing for me, and I really wish I had more time to do it. The next holiday isn't until the end of January, so now I'm just trying to get my head wrapped around that. I don't know if I can wait that long for another break. The weekends aren't much of a break for me at all considering I still do so much work, so I don't really know what's gunna happen there. Hopefully something works itself out in that regard.
One step at a time, one day at a time.
I'm feeling it pretty intensely, I'd say. Thing have been rough lately. I'm really overwhelmed and I have so much anxiety, and I don't really know what to do about it. It's in times like these that I miss my family terribly and thank the high heavens that my fiance is here with me. Because I'm so close with my family, I think being away from them is the hardest part. I also miss being able to talk to my friends on a more regular basis. Not to mention, the internet hasn't exactly been dependable. There's just not enough hours in the day. Or rather, not enough of those hours are spent relaxing or doing something other than work for school.
I knew it would be difficult to come here and that it would be a hard job, but I didn't really expect it to be like this. I mean, once you get your head wrapped around things and just accept that this is the way it is and just deal with it, you'll be ok. Doing so has been difficult for me though. I can feel myself fighting it and just yearning for the comfort of my old life, and I think that's part of my problem. Maybe that's what culture shock it overall. It's not so much that things are really different, it's just a different way of thinking, I guess. I can't quite explain it because it's really an internal thing, but yeah, it sucks. I literally just take it a day at a time and when I think even a week ahead I start to cry. I know in the end I'll be stronger though. Rimond says it's like learning to drive in New York City. If you can drive in New York City, you can drive anywhere. I just gotta stick it out and try to get through it and I'll be a better person and teacher for it. I need to be more positive! Everyone is really understanding and empathetic and says it'll get better, and I just hope they're right.
I did a bit of traveling over the Bayram holiday and that was really nice. Rimond and I went to Kapadokya (Cappadocia) for three days and met some really great people from all over the world. We went hiking the first day with a couple named Marina and Ag who spoke Russian, and after they left we met a group and hung out with two people named Houyem from Tunisia and Igor from Croatia. It was really wonderful to interact with all different types of people and see new and different things. I think traveling will be very healing for me, and I really wish I had more time to do it. The next holiday isn't until the end of January, so now I'm just trying to get my head wrapped around that. I don't know if I can wait that long for another break. The weekends aren't much of a break for me at all considering I still do so much work, so I don't really know what's gunna happen there. Hopefully something works itself out in that regard.
One step at a time, one day at a time.
Sunday, September 30, 2012
I Promise I'm Still Alive
I know it's been a while since I last updated. I've been so overwhelmed with everything that I haven't even had time to think about this blog. This post actually won't even be very long because I have a paper I need to go write for my ICELT (the Cambridge teaching certificate I'm getting here).
It's been a long two weeks. Being a noob is difficult here because you have no true experience to pull from as a reference if you don't know what to do, so I spend a lot more time than I'd like to on lesson planning and stuff. Not to mention, the first week was what everyone was calling "rediculously abnormal" in terms of all the chaos; the level I'm teaching, Pre-Intermediate (PIN), didn't have the right books. So basically, all the teachers planned from the third edition book and all the students had the fourth edition, and they're pretty much nothing alike. Sooo, all that time and effort in planning was scrapped....the day before classes started. You can imagine my frustration here. Needless to say, I was having a really rough time, but my ICELT tutor and some of the other teachers in my unit have been really helpful. Not to mention I've made a few friends who have my back in a few different ways, so that's been a lifesaver, too.
Rimond is here, too, and it's so nice :) I honestly don't know how I'd be making this journey without him. And that's not because it's an impossible journey (though it has seemed like it sometimes), but moreso because I just love him so much ;-) He's made friends with a lot of my friends and he often introduces ME to people while I'm off at work and he's off exploring the area. We make a good team here.
I love the language, too. It's hard to learn, but it seems like once you figure out the grammar you can definitely get a better handle on everything. Some of the sounds are difficult for me to make, but people usually understand what you're trying to say (plus, as I've learned, a great way to start an English pronunciation lesson is by attempting to speak some Turkish so students can correct/laugh at you. When they see you struggling in their language and try to help you, it makes them a little more understanding and open to the fact that I know they're struggling with my language and that I want to help them, too. Yes, I'm your teacher, but I'm also human). I wish I had more time to devote to learning Turkish, but right now it's just not possible. I'll take what I can get and practice where I can.
My students are nice. They're quiet and a little reserved, and only recently have they started to open up to me and actually talk during discussions and speaking lessons. I think I'm really lucky in a lot of different ways with this group, especially because they're really patient with me and they don't really try to push me or test me. At least not yet, anyway. It is only the end of week 2. I just can't help but feel I'm doing my students some sort of injustice in terms of my inexperience, and I'm worried that if some of them don't do well on their exams that it'll be my fault because I'm not the best teacher they could've had. I dunno. I guess we'll see what happens.
I have my first unassessed teaching practice (TP) next week. I'm teaching quantifiers and I'm unbelievably overwhelmed with the material and how to present it. This is a very sensitive subject in my opinion, and teaching it ineffectively can lead to a lot of confusion for my students. I guess I'm happy it's an unassessed observation, but still, I'm not looking forward to all the time I'm going to be putting in to one 50 minute session. I guess that's the reality of things though.
I knew it would be a lot of work coming here. I know what I signed up for. Now that it's all thrown in front of me, it seems a little unrealistic, but I really don't want to quit. I've cried a lot because I feel lost a lot of the time but I'm not the only person in this boat. Though that sounds really selfish, it's comforting to know I have good people around me who are also going through what I'm going through. I just wish I had more hours in the day. I think once I get a routine going and understand the system and the way things work, I'll feel a bajillion times better. They say course 1 is always the most difficult for noobs, so I really hope it'll just be a seemingly sort of downhill from then on. I'm trying to stay positive. There really is a lot of support here, you just need to know when to ask for (or beg) for it.
I think one of the reasons I hadn't updated in so long, too, is because I didn't want to just bitch bitch bitch. I'm a very lucky individual to have this opportunity here. When you look at the statistics of how many people got chosen vs. how many people applied for my position, it's somewhere along the lines of 7 vs. 200 or something like that. I don't want to seem ungrateful or negative, and because I knew my chaotic situation would be temporary (at least I hope it is), I didn't want to say anything at all. Bayram, a Turkish holiday, is coming up at the end of October. I'll have anywhere from 4 to 10 days off. I think having that time to just free my mind and not feel any pressure will do me some good. Plus me and Rym really wanna go get lost in the city. We were thinking about traveling, but instead we'll probably just explore our local surroundings and visit some stuff here before we venture out. We'll be able to save some money that way, and when the holiday in February comes around, maybe we'll be able to travel around then. We'll see. I just need to get a little more comfortable here first, and that hasn't been something that's been easy as of yet.
I miss everyone very much! I need to find more time for Skype and stuff. My Magic Jack has been a miracle, too. I recommend one to anyone who will be going overseas and will have access to a stable internet connection. Anyway, more to come later! :)
(So much for not having a long post, eh? I guess I'm just procrastinating my paper!)
It's been a long two weeks. Being a noob is difficult here because you have no true experience to pull from as a reference if you don't know what to do, so I spend a lot more time than I'd like to on lesson planning and stuff. Not to mention, the first week was what everyone was calling "rediculously abnormal" in terms of all the chaos; the level I'm teaching, Pre-Intermediate (PIN), didn't have the right books. So basically, all the teachers planned from the third edition book and all the students had the fourth edition, and they're pretty much nothing alike. Sooo, all that time and effort in planning was scrapped....the day before classes started. You can imagine my frustration here. Needless to say, I was having a really rough time, but my ICELT tutor and some of the other teachers in my unit have been really helpful. Not to mention I've made a few friends who have my back in a few different ways, so that's been a lifesaver, too.
Rimond is here, too, and it's so nice :) I honestly don't know how I'd be making this journey without him. And that's not because it's an impossible journey (though it has seemed like it sometimes), but moreso because I just love him so much ;-) He's made friends with a lot of my friends and he often introduces ME to people while I'm off at work and he's off exploring the area. We make a good team here.
I love the language, too. It's hard to learn, but it seems like once you figure out the grammar you can definitely get a better handle on everything. Some of the sounds are difficult for me to make, but people usually understand what you're trying to say (plus, as I've learned, a great way to start an English pronunciation lesson is by attempting to speak some Turkish so students can correct/laugh at you. When they see you struggling in their language and try to help you, it makes them a little more understanding and open to the fact that I know they're struggling with my language and that I want to help them, too. Yes, I'm your teacher, but I'm also human). I wish I had more time to devote to learning Turkish, but right now it's just not possible. I'll take what I can get and practice where I can.
My students are nice. They're quiet and a little reserved, and only recently have they started to open up to me and actually talk during discussions and speaking lessons. I think I'm really lucky in a lot of different ways with this group, especially because they're really patient with me and they don't really try to push me or test me. At least not yet, anyway. It is only the end of week 2. I just can't help but feel I'm doing my students some sort of injustice in terms of my inexperience, and I'm worried that if some of them don't do well on their exams that it'll be my fault because I'm not the best teacher they could've had. I dunno. I guess we'll see what happens.
I have my first unassessed teaching practice (TP) next week. I'm teaching quantifiers and I'm unbelievably overwhelmed with the material and how to present it. This is a very sensitive subject in my opinion, and teaching it ineffectively can lead to a lot of confusion for my students. I guess I'm happy it's an unassessed observation, but still, I'm not looking forward to all the time I'm going to be putting in to one 50 minute session. I guess that's the reality of things though.
I knew it would be a lot of work coming here. I know what I signed up for. Now that it's all thrown in front of me, it seems a little unrealistic, but I really don't want to quit. I've cried a lot because I feel lost a lot of the time but I'm not the only person in this boat. Though that sounds really selfish, it's comforting to know I have good people around me who are also going through what I'm going through. I just wish I had more hours in the day. I think once I get a routine going and understand the system and the way things work, I'll feel a bajillion times better. They say course 1 is always the most difficult for noobs, so I really hope it'll just be a seemingly sort of downhill from then on. I'm trying to stay positive. There really is a lot of support here, you just need to know when to ask for (or beg) for it.
I think one of the reasons I hadn't updated in so long, too, is because I didn't want to just bitch bitch bitch. I'm a very lucky individual to have this opportunity here. When you look at the statistics of how many people got chosen vs. how many people applied for my position, it's somewhere along the lines of 7 vs. 200 or something like that. I don't want to seem ungrateful or negative, and because I knew my chaotic situation would be temporary (at least I hope it is), I didn't want to say anything at all. Bayram, a Turkish holiday, is coming up at the end of October. I'll have anywhere from 4 to 10 days off. I think having that time to just free my mind and not feel any pressure will do me some good. Plus me and Rym really wanna go get lost in the city. We were thinking about traveling, but instead we'll probably just explore our local surroundings and visit some stuff here before we venture out. We'll be able to save some money that way, and when the holiday in February comes around, maybe we'll be able to travel around then. We'll see. I just need to get a little more comfortable here first, and that hasn't been something that's been easy as of yet.
I miss everyone very much! I need to find more time for Skype and stuff. My Magic Jack has been a miracle, too. I recommend one to anyone who will be going overseas and will have access to a stable internet connection. Anyway, more to come later! :)
(So much for not having a long post, eh? I guess I'm just procrastinating my paper!)
Sunday, September 2, 2012
First Week Survived
It's been a week since I got here, and so far so good. I've met a lot of great people from all over the world, so not only will I learn about Turkey but I'll also be getting some new perspective from other places, too.
I had an 11 hour layover in Frankfurt, Germany, so I went out into the city and explored a bit. There was a festival going on down by the river so I enjoyed myself there, but then I got a little lost. Some German lady cussed me out when I politely asked her if she spoke English so I could get directions. She said it all in German, but I understand what she said, which was, "No, I don't speak English. We're in Germany, we speak German." Even though it actually hurt my feelings a little and was extremely rude, I was glad she said it because in my head this was a very "American" thing to say. It was almost like, "Ok, this doesn't just happen in the US, maybe we're not so bad" type of thing, because I know the reputation Americans have sometimes. What I mean is, it's not about where you're from or what language you speak, it all boils down to what kind of person you are; if you're an asshole, you're an asshole. Real simple. She was one of those people who wore a permanent frown, so really I should have known better than to say anything to her anyway. I ended up calling the tour driver who I had befriended on our drive into the city and he came and got me and we hung out for a bit before he showed me how to take the metro back to the airport. His name was Ingo, and he was my savior! I'll definitely hit him up when I'm in Frankfurt again. Bless his soul.
Induction has been going pretty well so far. A lot of information about the school and what's to be expected has been covered, and I've also started my survival Turkish lessons. I like the language but it's all suffixes and there's a different word order, so I know I'll have to practice a lot. At least I can order a glass of red wine, that's what's important here.
The group has been introduced to a few nice bars and restaurants on or near campus and we did the city tour yesterday. Thursday was a holiday so Emily and Nadia and I took the bus and metro to Kizilay and Bachelievler (spelled the way is sounds because I don't have the Turkish letters on my keyboard) walked around and ate lunch. Emily has been here for two years teaching in a different city, so it's helpful to explore with someone who has a decent grasp on the language. I've been to a few malls and stuff nearby, too. Their regular malls are like our Mall of America, minus the rollercoasters (although there is a small fair outside one of them!). I've been spending a lot of money because I've been piecing together my apartment with things I need that you never really knew you used a lot until you don't have one. I also don't have a dryer, and you can't drink the tap water. Little things like this will take some getting used to, along with the dry weather. Being from Florida, it's always humid. Here the air is really dry, so my nose has been bleeding a little bit and my lips were really chapped for a while, but you adjust in time. I like the weather difference so far, actually, I just don't like the process of adjusting!
Next week starts more training as well as the ICELT course. I'm looking forward to that but not really at the same time because I've been told it's really overwhelming and time consuming. My fiance will arrive on Friday afternoon though so I'll be happy to have him here and it'll be a nice beginning to the weekend. The internet has been out though and will be all next week, which majorly sucks, but there's a Starbuck's close by (it's everywhere, actually) so I've been using their internet and Skyping with my family and fiance.
It's only been a week, but it's still hard to believe I live in Turkey now. Not having the internet to Skype with people or anything has also made me feel really removed from my "old life" in the states. I've felt a little lonely because of it, but thank the Universe for Starbuck's because being able to talk to my mom and fiance and a few friends from home has been the highlight of my day today. I hope I'll be able to better balance my time with all that as everything continues to develop here. Even though it's all a little overwhelming, I'm really excited to experience everything this next year will bring!
I had an 11 hour layover in Frankfurt, Germany, so I went out into the city and explored a bit. There was a festival going on down by the river so I enjoyed myself there, but then I got a little lost. Some German lady cussed me out when I politely asked her if she spoke English so I could get directions. She said it all in German, but I understand what she said, which was, "No, I don't speak English. We're in Germany, we speak German." Even though it actually hurt my feelings a little and was extremely rude, I was glad she said it because in my head this was a very "American" thing to say. It was almost like, "Ok, this doesn't just happen in the US, maybe we're not so bad" type of thing, because I know the reputation Americans have sometimes. What I mean is, it's not about where you're from or what language you speak, it all boils down to what kind of person you are; if you're an asshole, you're an asshole. Real simple. She was one of those people who wore a permanent frown, so really I should have known better than to say anything to her anyway. I ended up calling the tour driver who I had befriended on our drive into the city and he came and got me and we hung out for a bit before he showed me how to take the metro back to the airport. His name was Ingo, and he was my savior! I'll definitely hit him up when I'm in Frankfurt again. Bless his soul.
Induction has been going pretty well so far. A lot of information about the school and what's to be expected has been covered, and I've also started my survival Turkish lessons. I like the language but it's all suffixes and there's a different word order, so I know I'll have to practice a lot. At least I can order a glass of red wine, that's what's important here.
The group has been introduced to a few nice bars and restaurants on or near campus and we did the city tour yesterday. Thursday was a holiday so Emily and Nadia and I took the bus and metro to Kizilay and Bachelievler (spelled the way is sounds because I don't have the Turkish letters on my keyboard) walked around and ate lunch. Emily has been here for two years teaching in a different city, so it's helpful to explore with someone who has a decent grasp on the language. I've been to a few malls and stuff nearby, too. Their regular malls are like our Mall of America, minus the rollercoasters (although there is a small fair outside one of them!). I've been spending a lot of money because I've been piecing together my apartment with things I need that you never really knew you used a lot until you don't have one. I also don't have a dryer, and you can't drink the tap water. Little things like this will take some getting used to, along with the dry weather. Being from Florida, it's always humid. Here the air is really dry, so my nose has been bleeding a little bit and my lips were really chapped for a while, but you adjust in time. I like the weather difference so far, actually, I just don't like the process of adjusting!
Next week starts more training as well as the ICELT course. I'm looking forward to that but not really at the same time because I've been told it's really overwhelming and time consuming. My fiance will arrive on Friday afternoon though so I'll be happy to have him here and it'll be a nice beginning to the weekend. The internet has been out though and will be all next week, which majorly sucks, but there's a Starbuck's close by (it's everywhere, actually) so I've been using their internet and Skyping with my family and fiance.
It's only been a week, but it's still hard to believe I live in Turkey now. Not having the internet to Skype with people or anything has also made me feel really removed from my "old life" in the states. I've felt a little lonely because of it, but thank the Universe for Starbuck's because being able to talk to my mom and fiance and a few friends from home has been the highlight of my day today. I hope I'll be able to better balance my time with all that as everything continues to develop here. Even though it's all a little overwhelming, I'm really excited to experience everything this next year will bring!
Saturday, August 11, 2012
No, for real...
It's official...I'm going to teach English at a university in Ankara, Turkey.
It's strange because sometimes I feel like it's finally hit me and sometimes it doesn't feel real at all. I really need to start packing! And I just know I'll be a mess at the airport in less than two weeks; I'm going to miss my family and my fiance so much (but at least my fiance will be following me over shorly after)!!! I leave on the 23rd of August at 8:10 pm. It sure is getting close! Crazy how time flies.
I went to the Turkish Embassy in Washington D.C. on the 7th to turn in my paperwork for my visa. It was a lot easier than I thought it'd be. I was really only there for about 15 minutes and it wasn't even as expensive as I had anticipated. It's just strange I was required to be there in person for such a short transaction, but I figure there will probably be a lot of stuff I'll have to do that I won't necessarily understand so I may as well get used to it. But man, does D.C. traffic suckkkkkk. Good thing my cousin was there with his mad driving skillz to handle all that while I got all my stuff together. We've been traveling, first to Michigan and then to North Carolina (where I am right now) to visit friends and family, and the fact that I was able to weave my "D.C. visa" pitstop in there worked out perfectly. Plus we had a great time at a couple of bars and pubs when we got in! We travel really well together, and it's nice to have one last little hoorah vacation with him. He's basically my brother, and I'll miss him a lot, too.
Anyway, I had my visa shipped to me and they said I should have it by the 16th or 17th. That makes me really nervous because that's cutting it really close, but hopefully everything works out. In my head, nothing is official until I have my passport and visa in my hands. I even got my e-ticket for my flight a few days ago, but that means nothing without my goodies from the embassy.
I can't stop thinking about how lucky I am to have this opportunity. I'm nervous as all hell, not even gunna lie. But I'm also really, really excited. It's going to be a huge change, and even though change can be super scary sometimes, I'm trying not to dwell on that aspect. I'm going to learn so much about myself and about the career field I've aspired to enter. TEFL/TESL sparks an interest in me that I've never known before, so I really hope I end up being happy with the decisions I've made and everything I'm about to experience. I can hardly wait to see how different my life will be in just a short while from now!
It's strange because sometimes I feel like it's finally hit me and sometimes it doesn't feel real at all. I really need to start packing! And I just know I'll be a mess at the airport in less than two weeks; I'm going to miss my family and my fiance so much (but at least my fiance will be following me over shorly after)!!! I leave on the 23rd of August at 8:10 pm. It sure is getting close! Crazy how time flies.
I went to the Turkish Embassy in Washington D.C. on the 7th to turn in my paperwork for my visa. It was a lot easier than I thought it'd be. I was really only there for about 15 minutes and it wasn't even as expensive as I had anticipated. It's just strange I was required to be there in person for such a short transaction, but I figure there will probably be a lot of stuff I'll have to do that I won't necessarily understand so I may as well get used to it. But man, does D.C. traffic suckkkkkk. Good thing my cousin was there with his mad driving skillz to handle all that while I got all my stuff together. We've been traveling, first to Michigan and then to North Carolina (where I am right now) to visit friends and family, and the fact that I was able to weave my "D.C. visa" pitstop in there worked out perfectly. Plus we had a great time at a couple of bars and pubs when we got in! We travel really well together, and it's nice to have one last little hoorah vacation with him. He's basically my brother, and I'll miss him a lot, too.
Anyway, I had my visa shipped to me and they said I should have it by the 16th or 17th. That makes me really nervous because that's cutting it really close, but hopefully everything works out. In my head, nothing is official until I have my passport and visa in my hands. I even got my e-ticket for my flight a few days ago, but that means nothing without my goodies from the embassy.
I can't stop thinking about how lucky I am to have this opportunity. I'm nervous as all hell, not even gunna lie. But I'm also really, really excited. It's going to be a huge change, and even though change can be super scary sometimes, I'm trying not to dwell on that aspect. I'm going to learn so much about myself and about the career field I've aspired to enter. TEFL/TESL sparks an interest in me that I've never known before, so I really hope I end up being happy with the decisions I've made and everything I'm about to experience. I can hardly wait to see how different my life will be in just a short while from now!
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